It's now 9:04 pm, and it is the last day of 2007 staying at home now waiting for time to go out to have some relaxing time at Gilly Cafe. This year I have decided to not to have a countdown to 2008 at any mall in town. Some of my friends have went down to town to celebrate, anyway I wish them a very happy count down!! HAHAHA. So what have I did for the very last day of year 2007? Believe it or not, I stayed home and cleaned the entire home alone, yes ALONE, those who been to my house shall know the area of my house and yes it very tiring especially when I decided to mop the floor twice, yes TWICE, one with floor cleaner and another time with lime water. Supposingly I shall be thinking what is my year 2008 Resolution, but I thought it is good to clean the house as a sign of......... clearing the bad vibe away?! Yea yea, I guess so~!
Though tired and exhausted, however it does make me happy because I successfully and peacefully cleaned the whole house! Actually not just that, it was yesterday that my old man told me that I shall go search my path, search my future, search my destiny, and I have always said that destiny shall be decided by me and myself, it's always on my hand. And now..... I have the chance, what can I do? Initially I have thought that I will work with my old man to first stabilize the administration operation and then expand the scale of the business. While I am struggling to hold myself back to work with him, and I did (at last), and now he opened another road for me, he gave me a chance to build my own road, the road that only me and myself know where is the end.... Well old man, I am grateful, but I am determined to help you to set you free from the "B" list. Yes, I vow to our "Boss"! Again, Thanks Pop..
In the middle of typing this last post for the year of 2007, I double clicked on MSN messenger, I checked the list of people online and I realized that not many people that are really online. Feeling like I am alone, no no no I don't feel lonely and sad, it just gave me a space to think very deeply. Very deep. Very deep.
Back to January 2007, during January, I'm on holiday for Level 2 year end and waiting for Level 3 commencement. While waiting for commencement, I have helped my old man on his work, it was a boring job to be very serious, my job is just to fetch workers to other site and I am free from working, imagine this I can go Cineleisure at 11 am waiting the time pass until 1 pm and buy food for the workers, and then I can continue walking other mall, this time is The Curve and lastly IKANO. I know I know, there are bunch of people who just envy this kind of job right? You can have it if you want (:P) but too bad, vacancy closed (:P) It doesn't seem to be a good year for me, because on some day, I fell sick, a very serious sick, I got a dengue. The feeling is unexplainable, you can't sleep, you can't eat, you can't walk, you can't sit, everything seems to be so so so wrong. There's one day I seriously wanted to admit myself into the Government hospital, the feeling is just unbearable! I would like to take this chance to say thank you to my dearest mum for taking care of me, being so patient taking care of me, bringing me to numerous medical center, to Chinese doctor and also traditional medication. Some how some what, I went back to the temple, and "sf" said, you must be didn't sleep early it seems, he did some acupuncture on my back and the feeling is just.... "electrifying", HAHA, he said you look big in size doesn't mean I am tough, he said I'm very weak inside. What he gave me to eat doesn't really related to dengue, the medicine have make me go toilet "letting go more", and Whoila! I recovered!
Everything went better and Chinese New Year has then arrived! Everything went so good this year and my new house has become the new base for my bunch of friends, hahahaha my house has totally become a gambling dent! Gambling has not stop until the 15th of first month of Lunar it seems. Oh yea! Do not forget, my mum has held a birthday party for me too! I still remember that Jiu Wei do still follow me going here and there for celebrating CNY. Hahaha now she has got her own life and I wonder if she will still continue following us on this coming CNY? Gonna ask her again. College life has started again and now for this Level 3, quantity has become lesser than expected, no more busty See Ming sister, no more 50 cents, no more Irene. During the first week of final year, I have cracked my head to find a business proposal for my final year, I have come up with two ideas, Online Notebook Purchasing Website; because notebook has become our daily life "need" instead of "want", the other idea was Construction Management System; a system that shall manage the whole construction project in and out, every single detail, and I got a supervisor which I don't even heard of her name, Nadiah Suki, one my friend also got the same and we used to tease her that she is a Japanese. HAHA. Miss Nadiah is actually a very good lecturer, just that she doesn't speak up much and only talk when you ask.
Not everything went so smoothly, I'm struggling with my earning, I am living on debt, my job has not being paid well to me, or shall I just say I am underpaid, I am not happy with my job and I have to rush myself to the center straight after exhausting education life in APIIT and continue in the education line with a opposing role in APIIT, I underperformed, the student has become lesser and I got lesser pay and I am not happy for what I am making from, it has been a very tiring year for me. I have thought of quiting the job, which I did at the later stage of the year. I has be a very tiring 1st Quarter of year 2007. Just one good thing, I have more time on doing my assignment? HAHAHA a compensation for myself. Don't talk about love, it's just rubbish.
Ohh yea! This year my health deteriorate due to my stupid "sacrifices" to a girl, to call her in the middle of the night and got not enough sleep. Let's be fair, well.................. It's my fault, I sacrifice my sleep time for woo-ing her, and what I get? Nothing but hair loss. I don't blame her, it might be the result of summed up pressure, stress, not enough rest, and etc. Luckily it has now become better. Hahaha I still remember that I actually SMS-ed Yunnam Hair Care for a testing session, their consultation gave me an impression that they are the Conmen, while I am so scare I will become bald, they give all the reasoning of my hair loss based on the Questionnaire they gave me to fill in beforehand. It's just a general knowledge that any people who have hair loss shall know. So the testing session seem to good, pretty girls are everywhere, trying to get know you, chat with you and this and that, after all the service, now the consultant come!! (@.@) They will first tell you how good their stuff, what kind of ingredient inside and what's the effect!! Of course I am tempted to sign up their program! But HEY, they want RM3000.00 from me? Again my mum told and scolded me that it's just a cheat!! I was so so so pissed, but she end up correct because one of my friend told me that one of her friend working there too, everything is just......... ahem........... Thanks again mum!
By that time I seriously have no mood, no nothing, no girl, no appearance, no hair, no money, no entry in Blogspot. Living on despair. I have nothing to think about.... except the midpoint for Final Year Project (FYP) Life goes on.....................
Time flies, and now I am with my midpoint, I thought I have did a good job, but it turns out to be an OK one.. Advisor don't seem to like it much though. Now I can take a deep breath and sigh out, I am now at least finished six chapter of my FYP! I can go to my holiday!!! I can rest!!
After all the up and down in relationship, I have decided to put it down, let it be. Life is good without her though, I miss her though, but few days back, I meet up with her again and she did make me put her down forever, put her down as a girl I like, girl I admire, good friend, I guess we both more suit to be just FRIEND. I hope you will continue your life meaningfully. One of my best friend has wake me up from all this childish dream! I admire you my friend! I respect you! That's what I call a best friend, they no need to be with you every day, they don't say words that you like, they just give you good advice (you take it or leave it), they will be there when you need them! You are my man!
But you see, stubborn people like me usually "don't give up" easily, which result to more and more "stupid", continuing suffering from "unfruitful" outcome. In another way I do admire my "undying" spirit and also hate myself of being "stupid and stubborn". It seems so contradict! But whatever it is.. It's the experience of my life, so I do appreciate it, and so I have dedicated a story just for her. Not a very long not too elaborative.
Oh yea! Straight after my holiday from first semester, I did work for PC Fair for Logitech, it's my first time and it's fun but exhausted, know a bunch of lads but didn't keep in touch nor in contact. It seems those model are not that hard to approach, they are the same with other girls too. Apart from that, I found working is seriously not that enjoyable when people always find scapegoat. It's just........... to de-motivating. Nevertheless the job is very much good pay, but I don't see any prospect there unless you have a very purpose to get know the suppliers and the big boss there. Anyway, I do get know some big big suppliers and big big boss from the Award Winning shop at LowYat Plaza. But I didn't keep their contact either, very farking stupid me.
So... Holiday without vacation is not an holiday. So my bunch of friends, U.B.i has come up with this plan going to Perhentian Island (It's actually mine (:P) ), it's actually a good trip (it's ok only actually), flew all the way to Terengganu, took taxi to jetty, row the boat all the way to the island. The water... doesn't impress, might because of it rained a day before or something and the water from hill has all flown to the sea. Everything seems so normal until we go diving! Hey it's my first!! Hahaha my friend told me that I might able to see shark as big as human but the one (and only one) I saw is just as big as my limp. How about Nemo? It's not until the second day where we go to the light house where tonnes of nemo and colorful fish covering all the divers, seriously it is fun! I finally seen a "wall" of fish, they really swim so synchronized!! The coral... is just another disappointment, the tour guide is friendly, and they gave another unforgettable journey for us too! Turtle chasing trip! HAHAHA It seems that turtle are so slow in National Geography, but we seriously cannot follow anyone of the turtle we found, the guide risk his job to catch a sleeping turtle up for a better view and the turtle is just face to face to me! The situation is just like yesterday to me, we all jump at once and everyone swimming toward the turtle, it's like we are hunting them down!! It's a memorable one. I hope there will be another one sooner than later.
Nothing change in my daily routine for 3rd Quarter of 2007, I'm still me, life goes on with college life, stress is piling up, dateline is nearing, and not to forget! I have finally stop my job, not by giving resignation letter, not by telling my boss I'm not interested but a mother of my student told me to quit the center and come over her house to teach her daughter, but I did not though. Why? Because I want to spend more time on my ASSIGNMENTS! Seriously everyday I would turn on my computer or laptop working on my Final Year Project, not even one day I did not touch the document. The one I really remember is the Chapter 7, where everything cramped inside! The ever complete chapter in my college life! Worst ever! Spent few week just for that chapter! I don't have any time for other assignment, I left out my Perspective of System Analysis & Design and Applied Communication Technology.
Dateline is nearing and one of my classmate always reminds me my dateline on his MSN nick name (you are the man!! your nick inspired me to finish my project! HAHA) , counting down the dateline and it has finally got to the remaining 30 days, where I have finished 75% of my documentation and 60% of my system, and I finally finished my documentation on the very last day of the dateline, compiling is the toughest job ever! Spent 4 hours just for compiling the 10 chapters. Reaching college on 1 pm and printing, photocopy and binding takes another 2 and a half hour, it's finally done by 3:30 pm!!!! And I think I made a final friend from APIIT, which is the lady owner of the photocopy shop! She even treat us McDonald! (Thx ya!)
I finally submitted my FINAL YEAR PROJECT! By 5:30 pm! Finally............... One big mountain has left my shoulder, and of course I have slacked back again.. Lazy Lazy Lazy. Now come the devil lecturer, Ms. Thana, also one of the best lecturer! Throughout my college life there are a few lecturers really got my respect, and they are Mr. Sugumaran, Mr. Rathakrisnan, Ms. Supriya, Ms. Palvinder, Ms. Bridget, Mrs. Kwan, and another VB lecturer, sorry sir but I have forgotten your name. Back to the devil lecturer! Ms. Thana, a great lecturer who always demand for critical analysis! You trained us well maam! I appreciated you so much, you trained me into thinking more critically, more mature, and always come with a business mind set in anything. But seriously Mr. Chai and Chai Pallets plus RFID really killed me! It's even harder than FYP, and I seriously re-do all my documentation, everything critically criticized and analyzed! I did my best for that part! I am proud of my work, I don't care what grade I get, because it'd trained me so much! Though I still think Ms. Thana is requirement creeping the assignment! PSAD is a lot more easier, and I took prolly around 4 days to complete the whole thing, more of that I got an A, HAHAHAHA thanks Ms. Palvin!
After so much hassle!! The final day of college has arrived! Everything happened in college will be remembered forever, sweet, sour, salty, bitter, and whatsoever, I will craft it in my heart. My holiday has finally start on November! Haha living seriously meaningless! Too free until I have met corner of dead end thinking of unless life ahead. Restricted to myself that working with my old man is the darn boring and old style work, labour alike kind of style. And now on the 2nd last day of the year of 2007, my old man himself has took the key and release me from the cage and asked me to fly. I was seriously puzzled now. For the past November I'm struggling to convinced myself to work with my old man, and now, I have no idea what lies ahead but I am definitely confident that it's the brightest road ever. I know it will be like the course I took, the Hybrid Road, since it's hybrid, it will be a very exciting one. I will have no more childish dream, dreaming of getting girls, getting nice clothes, getting nice car, getting whatever shit. It seems the time has come I need some aspiration. I need a goal for year 2008, I promised myself it will be the best start ever. Thanks old man for setting me free! I will not disappoint you and also will not let you down, I'll be back to your helm to help you whenever you need me.
2007, a year which gives me a lot of hassle, a lot of problem, a lot of difficulty, and I have not die yet, there's a quote "If it doesn't kill me, it makes me stronger!" I believe I'm stronger now. Yes I am. I will conquer the year of 2008.
Now I would like to bid good bye to 2007.
Though tired and exhausted, however it does make me happy because I successfully and peacefully cleaned the whole house! Actually not just that, it was yesterday that my old man told me that I shall go search my path, search my future, search my destiny, and I have always said that destiny shall be decided by me and myself, it's always on my hand. And now..... I have the chance, what can I do? Initially I have thought that I will work with my old man to first stabilize the administration operation and then expand the scale of the business. While I am struggling to hold myself back to work with him, and I did (at last), and now he opened another road for me, he gave me a chance to build my own road, the road that only me and myself know where is the end.... Well old man, I am grateful, but I am determined to help you to set you free from the "B" list. Yes, I vow to our "Boss"! Again, Thanks Pop..
In the middle of typing this last post for the year of 2007, I double clicked on MSN messenger, I checked the list of people online and I realized that not many people that are really online. Feeling like I am alone, no no no I don't feel lonely and sad, it just gave me a space to think very deeply. Very deep. Very deep.
Back to January 2007, during January, I'm on holiday for Level 2 year end and waiting for Level 3 commencement. While waiting for commencement, I have helped my old man on his work, it was a boring job to be very serious, my job is just to fetch workers to other site and I am free from working, imagine this I can go Cineleisure at 11 am waiting the time pass until 1 pm and buy food for the workers, and then I can continue walking other mall, this time is The Curve and lastly IKANO. I know I know, there are bunch of people who just envy this kind of job right? You can have it if you want (:P) but too bad, vacancy closed (:P) It doesn't seem to be a good year for me, because on some day, I fell sick, a very serious sick, I got a dengue. The feeling is unexplainable, you can't sleep, you can't eat, you can't walk, you can't sit, everything seems to be so so so wrong. There's one day I seriously wanted to admit myself into the Government hospital, the feeling is just unbearable! I would like to take this chance to say thank you to my dearest mum for taking care of me, being so patient taking care of me, bringing me to numerous medical center, to Chinese doctor and also traditional medication. Some how some what, I went back to the temple, and "sf" said, you must be didn't sleep early it seems, he did some acupuncture on my back and the feeling is just.... "electrifying", HAHA, he said you look big in size doesn't mean I am tough, he said I'm very weak inside. What he gave me to eat doesn't really related to dengue, the medicine have make me go toilet "letting go more", and Whoila! I recovered!
Everything went better and Chinese New Year has then arrived! Everything went so good this year and my new house has become the new base for my bunch of friends, hahahaha my house has totally become a gambling dent! Gambling has not stop until the 15th of first month of Lunar it seems. Oh yea! Do not forget, my mum has held a birthday party for me too! I still remember that Jiu Wei do still follow me going here and there for celebrating CNY. Hahaha now she has got her own life and I wonder if she will still continue following us on this coming CNY? Gonna ask her again. College life has started again and now for this Level 3, quantity has become lesser than expected, no more busty See Ming sister, no more 50 cents, no more Irene. During the first week of final year, I have cracked my head to find a business proposal for my final year, I have come up with two ideas, Online Notebook Purchasing Website; because notebook has become our daily life "need" instead of "want", the other idea was Construction Management System; a system that shall manage the whole construction project in and out, every single detail, and I got a supervisor which I don't even heard of her name, Nadiah Suki, one my friend also got the same and we used to tease her that she is a Japanese. HAHA. Miss Nadiah is actually a very good lecturer, just that she doesn't speak up much and only talk when you ask.
Not everything went so smoothly, I'm struggling with my earning, I am living on debt, my job has not being paid well to me, or shall I just say I am underpaid, I am not happy with my job and I have to rush myself to the center straight after exhausting education life in APIIT and continue in the education line with a opposing role in APIIT, I underperformed, the student has become lesser and I got lesser pay and I am not happy for what I am making from, it has been a very tiring year for me. I have thought of quiting the job, which I did at the later stage of the year. I has be a very tiring 1st Quarter of year 2007. Just one good thing, I have more time on doing my assignment? HAHAHA a compensation for myself. Don't talk about love, it's just rubbish.
Ohh yea! This year my health deteriorate due to my stupid "sacrifices" to a girl, to call her in the middle of the night and got not enough sleep. Let's be fair, well.................. It's my fault, I sacrifice my sleep time for woo-ing her, and what I get? Nothing but hair loss. I don't blame her, it might be the result of summed up pressure, stress, not enough rest, and etc. Luckily it has now become better. Hahaha I still remember that I actually SMS-ed Yunnam Hair Care for a testing session, their consultation gave me an impression that they are the Conmen, while I am so scare I will become bald, they give all the reasoning of my hair loss based on the Questionnaire they gave me to fill in beforehand. It's just a general knowledge that any people who have hair loss shall know. So the testing session seem to good, pretty girls are everywhere, trying to get know you, chat with you and this and that, after all the service, now the consultant come!! (@.@) They will first tell you how good their stuff, what kind of ingredient inside and what's the effect!! Of course I am tempted to sign up their program! But HEY, they want RM3000.00 from me? Again my mum told and scolded me that it's just a cheat!! I was so so so pissed, but she end up correct because one of my friend told me that one of her friend working there too, everything is just......... ahem........... Thanks again mum!
By that time I seriously have no mood, no nothing, no girl, no appearance, no hair, no money, no entry in Blogspot. Living on despair. I have nothing to think about.... except the midpoint for Final Year Project (FYP) Life goes on.....................
Time flies, and now I am with my midpoint, I thought I have did a good job, but it turns out to be an OK one.. Advisor don't seem to like it much though. Now I can take a deep breath and sigh out, I am now at least finished six chapter of my FYP! I can go to my holiday!!! I can rest!!
After all the up and down in relationship, I have decided to put it down, let it be. Life is good without her though, I miss her though, but few days back, I meet up with her again and she did make me put her down forever, put her down as a girl I like, girl I admire, good friend, I guess we both more suit to be just FRIEND. I hope you will continue your life meaningfully. One of my best friend has wake me up from all this childish dream! I admire you my friend! I respect you! That's what I call a best friend, they no need to be with you every day, they don't say words that you like, they just give you good advice (you take it or leave it), they will be there when you need them! You are my man!
But you see, stubborn people like me usually "don't give up" easily, which result to more and more "stupid", continuing suffering from "unfruitful" outcome. In another way I do admire my "undying" spirit and also hate myself of being "stupid and stubborn". It seems so contradict! But whatever it is.. It's the experience of my life, so I do appreciate it, and so I have dedicated a story just for her. Not a very long not too elaborative.
Oh yea! Straight after my holiday from first semester, I did work for PC Fair for Logitech, it's my first time and it's fun but exhausted, know a bunch of lads but didn't keep in touch nor in contact. It seems those model are not that hard to approach, they are the same with other girls too. Apart from that, I found working is seriously not that enjoyable when people always find scapegoat. It's just........... to de-motivating. Nevertheless the job is very much good pay, but I don't see any prospect there unless you have a very purpose to get know the suppliers and the big boss there. Anyway, I do get know some big big suppliers and big big boss from the Award Winning shop at LowYat Plaza. But I didn't keep their contact either, very farking stupid me.
So... Holiday without vacation is not an holiday. So my bunch of friends, U.B.i has come up with this plan going to Perhentian Island (It's actually mine (:P) ), it's actually a good trip (it's ok only actually), flew all the way to Terengganu, took taxi to jetty, row the boat all the way to the island. The water... doesn't impress, might because of it rained a day before or something and the water from hill has all flown to the sea. Everything seems so normal until we go diving! Hey it's my first!! Hahaha my friend told me that I might able to see shark as big as human but the one (and only one) I saw is just as big as my limp. How about Nemo? It's not until the second day where we go to the light house where tonnes of nemo and colorful fish covering all the divers, seriously it is fun! I finally seen a "wall" of fish, they really swim so synchronized!! The coral... is just another disappointment, the tour guide is friendly, and they gave another unforgettable journey for us too! Turtle chasing trip! HAHAHA It seems that turtle are so slow in National Geography, but we seriously cannot follow anyone of the turtle we found, the guide risk his job to catch a sleeping turtle up for a better view and the turtle is just face to face to me! The situation is just like yesterday to me, we all jump at once and everyone swimming toward the turtle, it's like we are hunting them down!! It's a memorable one. I hope there will be another one sooner than later.
Nothing change in my daily routine for 3rd Quarter of 2007, I'm still me, life goes on with college life, stress is piling up, dateline is nearing, and not to forget! I have finally stop my job, not by giving resignation letter, not by telling my boss I'm not interested but a mother of my student told me to quit the center and come over her house to teach her daughter, but I did not though. Why? Because I want to spend more time on my ASSIGNMENTS! Seriously everyday I would turn on my computer or laptop working on my Final Year Project, not even one day I did not touch the document. The one I really remember is the Chapter 7, where everything cramped inside! The ever complete chapter in my college life! Worst ever! Spent few week just for that chapter! I don't have any time for other assignment, I left out my Perspective of System Analysis & Design and Applied Communication Technology.
Dateline is nearing and one of my classmate always reminds me my dateline on his MSN nick name (you are the man!! your nick inspired me to finish my project! HAHA) , counting down the dateline and it has finally got to the remaining 30 days, where I have finished 75% of my documentation and 60% of my system, and I finally finished my documentation on the very last day of the dateline, compiling is the toughest job ever! Spent 4 hours just for compiling the 10 chapters. Reaching college on 1 pm and printing, photocopy and binding takes another 2 and a half hour, it's finally done by 3:30 pm!!!! And I think I made a final friend from APIIT, which is the lady owner of the photocopy shop! She even treat us McDonald! (Thx ya!)
I finally submitted my FINAL YEAR PROJECT! By 5:30 pm! Finally............... One big mountain has left my shoulder, and of course I have slacked back again.. Lazy Lazy Lazy. Now come the devil lecturer, Ms. Thana, also one of the best lecturer! Throughout my college life there are a few lecturers really got my respect, and they are Mr. Sugumaran, Mr. Rathakrisnan, Ms. Supriya, Ms. Palvinder, Ms. Bridget, Mrs. Kwan, and another VB lecturer, sorry sir but I have forgotten your name. Back to the devil lecturer! Ms. Thana, a great lecturer who always demand for critical analysis! You trained us well maam! I appreciated you so much, you trained me into thinking more critically, more mature, and always come with a business mind set in anything. But seriously Mr. Chai and Chai Pallets plus RFID really killed me! It's even harder than FYP, and I seriously re-do all my documentation, everything critically criticized and analyzed! I did my best for that part! I am proud of my work, I don't care what grade I get, because it'd trained me so much! Though I still think Ms. Thana is requirement creeping the assignment! PSAD is a lot more easier, and I took prolly around 4 days to complete the whole thing, more of that I got an A, HAHAHAHA thanks Ms. Palvin!
After so much hassle!! The final day of college has arrived! Everything happened in college will be remembered forever, sweet, sour, salty, bitter, and whatsoever, I will craft it in my heart. My holiday has finally start on November! Haha living seriously meaningless! Too free until I have met corner of dead end thinking of unless life ahead. Restricted to myself that working with my old man is the darn boring and old style work, labour alike kind of style. And now on the 2nd last day of the year of 2007, my old man himself has took the key and release me from the cage and asked me to fly. I was seriously puzzled now. For the past November I'm struggling to convinced myself to work with my old man, and now, I have no idea what lies ahead but I am definitely confident that it's the brightest road ever. I know it will be like the course I took, the Hybrid Road, since it's hybrid, it will be a very exciting one. I will have no more childish dream, dreaming of getting girls, getting nice clothes, getting nice car, getting whatever shit. It seems the time has come I need some aspiration. I need a goal for year 2008, I promised myself it will be the best start ever. Thanks old man for setting me free! I will not disappoint you and also will not let you down, I'll be back to your helm to help you whenever you need me.
2007, a year which gives me a lot of hassle, a lot of problem, a lot of difficulty, and I have not die yet, there's a quote "If it doesn't kill me, it makes me stronger!" I believe I'm stronger now. Yes I am. I will conquer the year of 2008.
Now I would like to bid good bye to 2007.
Hasta La Vista 2007!
