I need some sense of belonging..

It seems that I have lost in my life, I live in the middle of no where, I have no sense of direction, no sense of belonging. So what having excelled in studies? I failed friendship & relationship. What's more? I have no direction at all, I'm pretty scare..... What will happen next? When everyone seem so happy with their companion, where is mine? When everyone has their so call "brotherhood", I burst it up, it burst up, it is so unrealistic. It has become very realistic, everyone seem to "boast" how great how great they are, so... what's the point? Do I respect you all by doing just like that? I somehow realized that this "hood" has come to an end. Life goes on...................

Relationship? Hahaha, to be frank, it has never sparkled since the very last one. All the while, I just got disappointment from.............. Life goes on..............

Future? I don't know where my future lies, seriously, can I embed my vision along with my old man. I seriously doubt if it will fruitful. What will happen then? I don't know but life goes on............

My dear AllaN, what had happened to you? Where have the fire gone? Blown away? Where is all my passion? Gone? Where is all my hope? Gone? Where is all my dream? Gone? Where is my love? I know it has long gone................ Sigh............ Might as well I had too many disappointment.


I need time to re-charge, I need motivation, I need love, I need courage, I need dream, I need passion, I need care, I need tenderness, I need trust, I need a sense of belonging!!!! I don't want to feel lost any more....

I need to find a way out................................................