2010 New Year Resolution.

Do you have one? I have one everyone.. but I doubt I able to achieve 20% of it. So I hope the next year one will be a realistic one and achievable. Let's not setting too much 1o nos is adequate.

Guess it would be too late for me to learn Chinese. I give up on this.

Learning new programming language need a lot of practices. No time for this. Give up.

Reading books, cut my internet if you want me to do so.

1. Be more patient.
2. Emphasize on the company documentation of any project. Create templates for different type, scale, and documenting problem, solution, and avoidance.
3. Properly plan for future. Company road map in 3 years time.
4. Proper finance management. Manage the portfolio nicely, calculate the returns in 5 years time.
5. Waste no time.

That's for the time being.

Xmas has come!

Merry Xmas. Shall I get anything for myself?

Another falldown

Was really happy for able to come back to KL for some holiday. I'm even more happy to know that I am able to go out with you! Say I am naive, simple minded, or stupid, I don't mind. To be able to go out with you, is my biggest wish, at least for now. Ever remember the very last time where I screwed up, by sending you 99 roses on the 09/09/09. I thought we were so unfamiliar. I tried to make it back, I did, I am happy that you allow me to bring back our familiarity back to or better than previously was.

Was worried I wasn't able to make it on time while I was having a decent breakfast with my family. I was so rush that I wanted to see you on the spot. Arriving at 110pm, which I got your SMS earlier to reach by 110pm. I'm glad that I didn't late. Poor you, you said your hand got cut by the contact lens cover. I wonder if your wound has become better? I hope so. Went to fetch Rainbow, and you say you don't want to be late. I used KESAS highway to reach Sunway Pyramid before 200pm. YES! I didn't disappoint you. I really hope I will never disappoint you in any single way.

Though it's a bit "don't know what to do" but still I am very happy to be able to go out with you although it's a group outing. Seriously! I love it! You said you are hungry, and I asked you not to have too much food as gastric might strike you again, but silly me, I went to order so much! Seafood plater, sashimi, sushi and others, I'm so bloated! I just enjoy the time we are having the meal!! It was a fantastic time to be able to eat with you! You seems to happy to be able to eat that much. Luckily gastric didn't strike you.

We went to the movie. Though we are not sitting to each other, but I'm grateful to be able to watch the movie with you. To be frank! I wish this could happens everyday!! I WISH! I DO WISH!

Then we went to LowYat for some Thai food, Bangkok Jam, haha it's a nice place, but also pricey. You seems to have a very nice chatting with your best buddies. Me too enjoy listening to your story. After a while, Rainbow asked why am I look so.... serious? Well... I'm glad that you answer for me, yea.. my face is like that, can't be helped. We went to KK Mart nearby Bkt Bintang to get some wines, I gave you my wallet when you ask me to pay first, do you know my intention? Hope you do. Something made me even happier is that you were so caring that when my nose seems running, you asked Rainbow if she has tissue paper, and you pass it to me. I really felt so "melted". Haha

Arrived to my house and we all drink to you seems so drunk. Laughing like just had drug. We played some stupid games. Exciting? Well.. certainly. You seems drunk, so after cleaning up the mess, I sent you home. You reminds me please do not use Mines highway, hahaha you seems really remember that situation. Sent you home and you said SMS you when I arrive. I wanted to call you but somehow my line got barred. I called you using my house line, you said you nearly do not want to pick up cos it's a anonymous number. Again I'm glad you picked up.

I really wanted to see you even more. Though we spent more than 12 hours together on that day itself. I leverage what you have said to Diana, you want to go to Phuture. I plan it, and make it going. I never know that you were so tired on the night itself. What certainly makes my day again is that we wore the same color attire! WOAH!!! But it seems doesn't help either right?

You seems just ignore me in the club. I wonder.

You said nothing. You just don't feel comfortable with the air inside. I must be thinking too much. Thinking that you might not like I dance with Rainbow? Diana? Haha well I think I am drunk that night. I also wonder why am I so obsess with you? I drive so slow that I am like not interested to send you home. But I have to, I just drive slowly. Atmosphere seems weird, I really wanted you to be with me. You ask me to talk whatever I want to talk and we did some heart to heart talk. You said you hate people being materialistic, did I do that? Please forgive me if I did so.

Disappointing.

You said you are not confident to start a new journey. I have lost confident in guys. Why is it so? I am not sure. But I hope I can penetrate it, open up your mind and be your man. Taking good care of you. I left with a hole in my heart. Sent you home and said bye. When I am back I sent an SMS trying to clarify on my action previously. You said I think too much, which I hope I did. I am glad that we can still go out next time and treat you on some good stuff.

I will continue this journey until the faith brought us apart.........

Leaving

So I got to know that you will be leaving, leaving this world, leaving everything behind. The memories of me together with you is fading away. What can I do now other than memorizing everything and writing it down to myself.

I really can't recall much...

I know you love me, you always do, you love me more than your dearest.

You cherish me more than anyone do.

The way you care me is not comparable with anyone.

You hug me whenever you see me.

You shield me from my mum's rattan.

You protect me from sun and rain.

You ride me to school with your motorcycle.

You gave me money even my mum said not too.

You accompany me until the bell rang.

You accompany me playing with my friend.

You scolded those who bullied me.

You waited me until my school finished.

You brought me for lunch though you are poor.

You bought toys for me.

You gives me the biggest red packet among everyone.

You boil the best soup for Chinese New Year.

You save the best drumstick for me.

You feed me spoon by spoon when I don't want to eat.

You buy me roasted chicken wings for supper.

You scold everyone who scolded me.

You always come to visit me when I'm sick.

You always put your hand on my forehead to check if I'm on fever.

You pursuaded me to take medicine.

You checked my homework although you don't know English.

You sharpened my pencil for me whenever you come.

You check if my color pencils are complete.

You buy every single materials for me when I need it.

You find rare items for me whenever I need it for arts.

You do spelling with me.

You save the best for me.

I miss the feeling of you embracing me.

I miss the feeling of leaning on your shoulder.

You are so proud of me.

You are so proud of me.

You are so proud of me.

You bragged about me in front of everyone.

You are so proud that I got no. 3 overall in standard 3.

You bragged about it.

You bragged about me entering the top notch class during standard 6.

You are so proud when my friends' parent praising me.

You willing to fetch me everyday until I'm fourteen.

I am not a good grandchild.

Forgive me for not being a good grandchild.

Forgive me that I am ashamed you fetched me go and forth when I'm fourteen.

Forgive me for being the proudest grandchild ever, ashaming on you.

Which spells an end to our fond. I am sorry.

Time flies, family affairs change, as I grow elder, you grow older.

Every year you waited my family to eat at your house.

I knew you always wanted to but things just doesn't happen.

Adult, adult, adult, are always foolish.

Yet I have not greeted you in early morning Chinese New Year for years.

You still deliver the red packet to me with wishes.

You said it's OK not to find you, but I know you would love to.

You said go on find your friends, but I know you would like me to stay.

You always wanted me to study to the highest level.

You always wanted me to go oversea.

You always wanted me to go U.K. for furthere my study.

You always wanted me to study more.

You always wanted me to get my Master.

I'm sorry..

I have not wanted to study any higher than a degree.

I have not wanted to go oversea.

I have not even think about going U.K.

I have not wanted to study more.

I have not wanted to get my Master just yet.

And now I have graduated since 2007.

And now I have an honor degree from U.K.

But I have not told you anything.

I didn't informed you that I graduated.

I didn't even take a picture with you though I know you always wanted to.

I regret it.....

Very often I think about you.

But too often I give myself excuses I have no time.

Very often I wanted to buy you something.

But too often I give myself excuses let's buy it next time.

Such an unfilial grandson.

And now I have the financial capability, I bought you clothes, you said you don't need it.

I know you like it. I know you do. I force you to take it. I can see the brightest smile from you since many years ago.

I give you money, you said I shall keep it. Oh.. grandpa, how long more can I give you money?

I just wonder. You said keep it for myself but it would be meaningless to earn thousands and I got no chance to spend on you.

I force you to take it. I can see the brightest smile from you again.

I bought you a birthday cake, you said don't waste such money.

Then why are you wasting so much money on me? You bought me everything I wanted.

I don't care, I force you to come over.

I can see your brightest, happiest, warmest smile from your heart.

I hope we can celebrate again for coming years.

But how many more time? I hope it's not the last one.

Now I know you got cancer, the final stage. What else more can I do?

No one wants to take know about you.

No one even care about you.

Your unfilial sons, my unfilial uncles, have not even care about you.

What can I do?

I always wanted to scold them, I always wanted to fuck them, I always wanted to punch them.

But what can I do?

Your daugther, my mum, taught me to respect every elder no matter what happened.

Grandpa, fear not have no one wants you, I will take care of you.

Grandpa, fear not have no money, I have aplenty, I can take care of you.

Grandpa, fear not have no shelter, I have aplenty, you can stay as long as you can.

Grandpa, fear not to feel unwanted, I always wanted you to be with me.

Month ago, you fell from motorcycle, you were in pain, but you don't want to see a doctor.

Why? Why I have to force you to do everything that is good for you.

And this is not something you will happy about.

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And yesterday I know about the bad news. I still don't know what can I do. Timing is moving so fast, it's really true that time and tide wait for no one, so fast that I wish it will stop for a while. Rewinds back to when I am still young, where you can embrace me and I can lie on your shoulder.

Arrogant

I realized that I have been quite arrogant. For what I have now, I seriously forgot the base. I got money, but I forgot how hard is it to earn it. Is this typical situation for everyone? When you have money you tend to forget how to be humble.

Learn to be humble Allan..

Failed Whale

For I have failed like a failed whale, what shall I do next? Pls gimme another chance.

Feeling

I first saw you in the club with slight affection but something made me tend to not to know you. You changed my mind the second time few hours later when I know it's not your liking too. I reserved my impression on you.

The second time I saw you, I still feel slight affection towards you, you were beautiful that night, we talked, nothing more than a normal conversation. I saw someone trying to go near you, and you feel not so comfortable. I stepped in to interfere, which is so unlike me, who usually don't even bother what happen around me and my friends, would step up for a girl. To an extend I told him that you are my girl. I was stunned by my action and I guess you too. Never thought of being a hero, I ensure he didn't hurts you. As aggressive as he is, I got jokingly hit by him, but I am glad he's away from you. We are just glad that night ends faster rather than later. But I miss out the chance of getting your contact. A pity I must say.

I found you my mutual friend with Gee, I talked to Gee, I added you, but it seems you rejected me. Gee helped me, and we are now friend. Would love to thanks Gee for being so nice conveying my thought toward you. You said you were impressed!! So do I. We started to chat, thought not in deep, we exchanged number, I was so damn happy. You were asking me a favor to fetch you to club. What else more I can say, it's my total pleasure! I would leave any matter to do this favor. We got slightly closer, I know you a lil more. But I guess you just don't know me. It was an happy day! It really was!

As time goes by, I found you a very nice girl to be with. You have your own thought, you were a lil special, your caring towards friend, your positive thinking (or maybe just appearantly), tend to caught my attention. I found you are special too, when the gift you given to your friend is all small, inexpensive, and meaningful. You just caught my heart just like that! Can I find another person just like you in this materialistic world? I doubt so.

It seems I really into you. I find my way to get to know you more. I tried my best to get your attention. So I tried to figured out what you like. Which for an coincident, you said you like Zee Avi. I try my very best to find the CD though I got no time. I asked Alicia, I ask LQ to help me to find the CD, and still I know I couldn't let any chance to flow away, I couldn't let you get it yourself, I go and buy it myself. YES! I have finally bought it, I still hesitate to give it to you. But I told myself, don't let chances to go away just like that. I anxiously considering, and finally I called you, telling you I have something to give you. I am happy to see you stunned and have no words to say! I am very happy!

Days later, you said you were tensioned. You wish to have Haagen Dazs, you didn't told me directly. You posted on FB. Could it be my affection on you have grown? I try my very best to get you one. Which ends up I get you both. You were stunned! You said you appreciate what I done. I hope you know what I feel towards you.

Time passes without waiting. I always wanted to hang out with you and I got another chance. We went to Genting Highland alongside with your best friend. You said you wanted to see the firework, but I doubt I managed to reach there in time. Surprisingly I did managed but too bad we didn't managed to got to see the full firework. Your friend, Diana, argued with bf in the car, you teases her, you teases me, you asked "How much are you going to treasure me?" I really want to tell you "I am going to treasure you as long as you let me to.", I dare not, but the answer I gave you is just merely the same.

You praised me that the way I drive is very comfortable. I am very very pleased that I would drive you to anywhere everyday if I could. We miss out the firework and you jokingly said "I want to see the firework! You must do one for me! Let it be just two firework stick". I really think hard though I pretends not to pay attention to you. It was a great night for me I hope yours too. I got to know there's this guy was into you too, and for god sake, you leaked that you rejected him by telling him, you liked someone else.

Firework. It would be lame to really hold just two firework sticks. What's more? Am actually pretty glad to be able to know programming and flash. I find my way to make a firework. I finally did! I feel so great to be able to finish the program. What's more? I am trying a very good time to show you this firework. I wonder if you will be touched. I just can't wait to show it to you. I force myself to be brave enough to show it to you. I find my way to show it to you. I was disappointed that you didn't manage to see it by that day.

You asked me why you can't open, which I already know, you can't. I teached you. I really wish you could see it! And you were so so so surprised when you see it! You said "I see it! I see it! OMG! OMG! You remember what I said", I am glad you like it! You said "You are so so so sweet". I just happy! I am very happy that you said I'm sweet. I am glad you like it! I would love to do it everyday for you to make you happy.

We went to club, everything seems so fine, but I just don't know how to flirt with you in club. I don't know how can I approach you in club. We went home finally, after sending other friends home, I send you home. You asked me to use route A, but I use route B instead, because I know route A is much much more faster than route B. I wanted to stay with you a lil longer. But I don't know you will dislike it. I am sorry. You said you are just too tired. Could it really be? Or you are realy angry? I have been worrying since.

I don't dare to bother you.

I choose to believe in you since you said you have not got angry.

A few more days already 09/09/09, I tried to date you for dinner. But you said are going to work overtime. Which I believe you are, your dedication of work is just earn my respect. Thinking what can I do on this occasion, I bought a bouquet of 99 roses to your office. I knew it was too fast, I knew the result will not be the one I wanted.

I have never let you know I like you, I really would like to let you know I like you. It took so much courage to do such silly thing. The consequences is big, could be unexpected, could be negative. After all, I know the answer, I am glad that you did not tell me you got another person you liking. Instead you said you are not ready for relationship. You said you do not want to hurt me. I never told you, I am willing to wait until you are ready. Once I said it, I mean it.

What I believe in myself being part of employer

I have no experience in working in big MNC, I have no course in BA, I only study BIT, has no economical background or whatsoever.

I work based on my logical thinking and my conscience, there's reason why I created a name for my new venture or future venture. "Synergy", I belive one can never succeed by their own, people must cooperate with each other to bring out a better result. My principal of life. Communication is a very very vital too. To communicate with your upper line and lower line can absolutely bring you to a higher level.

Why? This is because the lower line has more experience in operation and they face more operation difficulty than middle or upper line do. Middle line shall convey the difficulty faced by upper line to the lower line. Upper line shall consider even more on the middle and lower line operation.

How are you going to excel when everyone is pointing finger to keep their ass safe? Creating hatred everywhere which resulting to no harmony. What can you do about it? The company is going to ruin in no time. Expansion = Destruction.

Though this message might not able to convey to the intented party, but I do hope it can reminds me every single bit in the future.

I am still alive

Well guys I am still alive in this earth and living happily with my current life and I content with what I have now and eagerly to upgrade it. That's it for the summary.

O.K. I think this blog have no more visitors! That's good!

I have been start working with my dad since March this year and everything progressing very well. Though many people might think I have been misplaced or to be said I wasted my 5 years of education in I.T. field, I seriously do not think I have wasted my 5 years of UC education. I always thought what I have learn from UC is not I.T. skill but is the way of working. Since I helped my dad I can proudly say that I have increased the business rate of my dad's business. That is why I dare to say I able to get a Mazda.

How much do I earn working in IT? 2K, 3K? Can I support the whole family? No, not even a bit!

I choose my path and I am happy with it.

I will not live on by looking back what failure I have live back. I only know if I don't move forward. I will just be stagnent. I will not look back the way I am, I will not look back my failure of my relationship, I will not look back on the failure of my friendship, I will not look back at my last jobs, I will not look back at my last failure. But it will remains as a reminder, reminds me on how it can makes me better in person.

Everything will be fine! I love my life now although it's quite busy and still need work on Sunday.

Again I am still alive!

Pressure

Working with your own family is never easy.
Take over family stuff is also never easy.
Pleasing everyone is also never easy.
Being too smart is also never easy.
Having stupid people around is TOUGH!

I'm very pressure!
I have no life!

PLEASE HELP ME!

I’m lonely

I just figured out that I’m all alone now, no one besides me and no one to talk to. Having no people around me I felt that I have finally lost most of my friends. I have very less social life. I’m down, emo, and felt lonely.

I have no one to share my feeling with, I feel so alone, having to give up so much to make sure other get the better one. What about me? I’m sad that no one did the same to me. I fear, fear there might nothing left for me.

I’m in need some one to be my side and hear my story and my feeling, having to hear all from everyone, I feel tired too, I might look strong from outside, but I’m still weak inside. Knowing to give out, but what I get? Taken for granted?

I’m just like sitting at the corner of the wall, drawing circle and facing the wall……

M defeated

Feels defeated, should have just trash the piano. I've lost.

Lost

I have lost.. lost in the middle of transition.

I used to be a person who will fight for good result.
I used to be a person who will fight for a good future.
I used to be a person who will do more than anyone.
I used to be a person who have vision and mission.
I used to be the most hardworking person in the my pool of friends.
I used to be the most outstanding player in a group.
I used to be visionary.
I used to be confident on everything I do.
I used to be not fear any problem that forced to me.
I used to be out going and don't stay at home everyday.
I used to be know how to earn money than anyone else among my friends.
I used to be not lost.
I used to have a lots of friends.
I used to have happening life and endless entertaining life.
I used to very hardworking.
I used to love exploring.
I used to have the fighting spirit.
I used to have a lot of objectives.
I used to have LIFE..............................

But it seems I am no longer what I am. I'm lost.

Off I am.

The 2009 Resolution

Hahaha though I have move its not like I'm going to abandon the root of my blog right (though not really root), xanga was the first, with one post! HAHA

Resolution everyone has one and I have delayed mine til today.

1. To be fit and healty in every sense, physical and mental and cosmetically (did I use the wrong word)? Must be actively join the Cochrane Sport Club and organizes more sport activities. Practices more yoga.

2. I have thought that procrastination is the main reason year 2008 is a failure. I have thought I have told myself not to procrastinate for year 2008, but nevermind, Allan don't procrastinate! Get my thing done when I thought of it, it's effective after 1 day of experiment. LOL.

3. Learn more on I.T. stuff, spread the knowledge and develop the community for Joomla!. I have learned Javascript and next one will be

• AJAX
• ASP
  
• Silverlight
  
• Enhancement on PHP and MySQL
• Basic Adobe Photoshop and Flash
  
• Joomla! Extension Development
  

4. Earn more money! Not enough money, I want more, I need more, I want a lot!

5. Extend the social network available. I have too little friends it seems. Everything seems so hard with small circle of friends.

6. Be more confident on everything I do, I'm not that useless!

7. I want a life! LOL!

8. Last but not least a pretty, beautiful, smart single lady as my girlfriend!

9. Do more charity? Can I?

10. READ MORE BOOK!!!! UR INITIAL PURPOSE OF BUYING AN IPHONE IS THAT YOU CAN READ MORE BOOK!!!! DON'T GIVE EXCUSES!

That's just resolution.. I wish...

1. My family all healthy and wealthy in everything!

2. Lesser misfortune in this world.

3. My life is getting more content everyday!!

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHA

Because I have moved.

No updates? This is because I have moved to here!

Jealous?

Yes... Though I wish I could say I'm not.

Something that surely blow you away!

Try imagine an iPod Touch with the functionality of Mac Pro. WAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!
But the setback is USD4999. Cool right?

Year 2008 Review

A year have passed and what have happened since 1/1/2008 and how it shall reflect the year 2009?

Everything passed so fast that I don’t realize that it’s already 2009, from my struggling during the same date back 365 days ago. Shall I work with my dad or shall I go out from the protection and what I think (foolishly) that helping my dad is something not so good for my future. I have completed the cycle of living outside world and now I think I’m really foolish that wasted my time one year to help other people, and now in conjunction of this blog log I’m announcing that I will start helping my dad officially today (though nothing much to do now), so if you manage to read this lengthy post, please do not ask me anymore about my job. Anyway, if you need helps in web development I guess I still can help.

A bit lost since then, when I finally get my job on my first attempt on my job search during last year. When I first got to that place, it really took away quite a lot of my expectation of my first job. It’s a very very old building with all the printing companies and factories surrounding it. No sight of white collar workers around. I feel like retreating from the interview and give whatever lame reasons for them, but I convinced myself to go up to the company to have a shot or even practice my interview.

If I remember correctly, the interview really impresses me a lot. The business development and marketing manager brag all the way and I believed all the way, while she’s also impressed with my “selling points”, she urged me to wait for the director’s call for a second interview. I waited until a few days before CNY, and have met him and again I’m so impressed with his knowledge and his pledges towards the company and how he wants it to grow and expand to America.

So I started my job since, I’m still very convinced that I chose the right company, I think it’s worthwhile to stay in a small company and learn more instead of going to the big company, learning a structural knowledge. But I can tell myself now that I’m so wrong that I chose not to join the big company and not learning their structural way of working things out. Why so? The small company is no good? I can’t say they are 100% no good, no matter what I still learned a lot of new stuff that most of my friends failed to learn. The good part is that I learned a lot of technology (and mostly is programming) be it on Open Source or Microsoft. But still… it is not what I really wants, and those who know me well know I do not like programming.

For what I praised in my previous year review (year 2007), that Hybrid module I took is a good choice for me, but now think again, it’s actually not the best choice. I ignored the fact that the world is now very much emphasize on specialization. I failed to fully specialize on programming and I fail to specialize in total management too. In other word, if I continue like this, I tend to fail in the future too!

Another hate and love affair in my 10 months of working life span in the company I joined, is that I have to learn everything by myself. Regardless it’s business process or new programming language or whatsoever stuff, and let’s be fair, the director do teach me, but it’s just not what I expect. There are too much stuff to learn in a short time and what’s more? The perfection he requires is clearly off from the range I can offer, be it I am not capable to fulfill his requirement, be it I did it on purpose, or be it I’m lazy.

For months I have drown in the “geeks” world, reading only technology articles, search only forums for solutions, and update on technology only. I have totally forgotten that what I yearn to learn is business operation, how to grow business and how to manage business. I failed to learn any from there or at least I learn how important is management towards a corporation. I learned how to be a good leader, I learned what does it mean by employees’ morale, I learn that scolding is not the only way of doing it. Which has changed how I treat people, why? Because when I see my boss, I see my own self few years back, which reminds me when I’m still in a group with Siew Wai, Thererick, and Eugene. I am totally “African-Monk” to them.

During the initial months, I passed my probation in 3 months! YES! I got a laptop from the company. YES!! (I bought an iPhone too). I got special project allowance which makes my salary goes so high, that makes me really want to stay there for long.

Everything seems so fine at there (at least until July), the environment is so friendly, I have a few colleague which really tags along. But slowly, everyone I know (when I entered to this company) has leaved the company for “ugly” reason, which I seriously think that the employers overlook it, they do not play a good role, how do they expect people to do the same? What’s more? I become the lonely bird there, waiting time pass by, even my assistant has left (sacked?), leaving me totally alone helplessly doing all the work alone.

From there I really know what is does the elderly said “Think before you speak”, it seems that my ex-employer do not really think before they speaks, the way they talk has always have “bone”, what really makes me sick and start to under-perform (on purpose or not) is when my superior accused that my assistant is not a reliable person, he’s a lazy person, and have no responsibility. If my ex-employer got to read this blog. I’m telling you now that, he’s a good person, he’s a reliable person, he’s a responsible person, he’s not someone you said. He’s the one who helped me until 3 am on his last day. If he’s not the person I believe he is, he will go off at 6 pm, what more he care about it?

What’s more? My allowance has suddenly vanished, without any official discussion. The director always said that the superior has no need to tell whatever decision he made. I think this is something that really create the uneasiness in the environment. You made no conversation with me for cutting my allowance, how do you expect me to follow you anymore? Furthermore, you said you want to take back the laptop and provide it a freelancer. I do not think I can stay with the company anymore. In addition telling me that sacking my assistant for the reason that U.S has fall into recession and client wanted to cut cost and yet hired a fresh grad within a month after my assistant left. Be it I think too much or I care too much. I do not like it.

Forcing me to understand a problematic business process and fit the customize software to the unacceptable business process and blame me for not analyzing the business process properly is always what I got to do there. The structure of the data is not even a systematic one, and using string manipulation to determine the grade is totally stupid if the string has no proper format. Requirement creeping in on each time deployment. Guess what? You don’t even know what is requirement creeping, how are you going to be a good software house? Don’t tell me what business point of view and technical point of view, but you always over look the HR point of view and the company KB point of view. You only know how to take more enhancement, and making the project running out from schedule. You miscalculate (at least from my POV).

And last but not least from the employer, you hurt my confidence in I.T, calling me to quit I.T and not to lag the industry. Well, I have struggled for a few weeks with your “advice”, and yes, I will leave I.T and continue my path in I.C.T (an uncle told me, what is I.T and I.C.T) and excel to let you see that I am capable and you shall keep back your word. I’ll prove it! I definitely will!

That’s all for the working stuff (which have occupied most of my time of 2008).

What’s love? I do not feel love for the whole year. But I do have some affection on some girls. Do I have any target? Yes, I always have affection for a few girls, and will always do (at least when I’m still single :P).

I bought a Coach for someone’s birthday. LOL. I must note down this as this is the first time I bought a Coach for someone. She’s damn happy. LOL. Are you still using it?

Skipping sleeps just to accompany someone’s birthday. Duh…

Basically after that I have no life at all, not to say to have a crush, the chances to get near a female is also limited. Due to? Work… Seriously WTF? Until recently after I quit my job, I got to get closer to someone, someone and someone. Haha I enjoyed every single moment, I’m not sure if you do? It doesn’t matter I’m tired or not, happy time spent is just worthwhile. I hope it can last though… but well… hmm… aihz… sigh…

I have go through a healthy life for the past erm… half year, 1st half of 2008 where I will practice yoga along with my mum on Sunday. But stopped around September I guess, if I’m not wrong and started an unhealthy life by eating mamak everyday for lunch and take overdose of sugar when it’s just too stress. The consequences? A belly. DAMN!

I am going to exercise more in the year 2009 and get rid of the tummy! I will I definitely will!

How about family affair? Everything is so well in the year 2008 (at least my atomic family) and would love to have a better one this year! There are some problem from maternal family side and problem starting to get solve from paternal family. See… everything is related to money, MONEY is very important to me to be able to solve all this problem, which is one of the reason why I chose to work with my dad in the year 2009. I want a happy family, I do not want to see suffering among them.

After so many complaining about the year on 2008, there are also sweet time in the bitterness. I seriously would like to thanks my ex-employer to direct me to the technology line, which now I can adapt on new technology without problem (might you planned, or not), I seriously would like to thank you.

For my parents, thank you for being so supportive.

For my siblings, be a good person in the future, don’t just play and play and play.

For myself? Cherish yourself more, more than anyone else!

Did I go to any places for vacation? Yes! I did! To MELAKA! I know, I know, I know, it might sounds so……… near for some people and you might go there even it’s just weekend.

A memorable trip, went with the U.B.i. But met some empty boasting people there. 16GB RAM in desktop =.=’’ WTF? LOL? 10k per month but CC not approve? LOL Seriously… I wanted to laugh out loud! LOL!

Temporary stop here! It’s getting late now. I better go to sleep now. I promise I will upload pictures to beautify this post! Adios!

Happy New Year!!!

Leave the bad back at 2008! Look forward in 2009! LOL