What have I did? Rounding?

It almost three months since working, what have I gain from working there? Do I really want to do programming? I am lost actually, it might be true like how he says, I do need to learn from ground up but then how long more can I sustain?

Today he shows me another great portfolio resume, he's two year elder than me, but have tonnes of experience that I don't have! Whatever you can think of, he has it. That really motivate me to surpass him in 2 year?

Nothing to crap more....