What I have been to?

Ok.. I resigned on Thursday. Let's accept that both party can't take it anymore. I can't stand it anymore. What's more? I do believe my future lies beyond the current one. I do believe I deserve better than now. I want more than now, I want a better and happier life than now. I want more self satisfaction, self motivation, self achievement or whatsoever it shall be. Yes, I'm selfish. So what? That's what my nature from the start.. DONE! Let's move on........

O.K. back to more personal stuff :P

The new spec is just not that comfortable to wear, I bought a new spec today :P Gonna get a few pairs sooner or later :P

My physical & mental is quite exhausted, I think I need a break before I can continue anything. What's my plan for the year end? Definitely is to renovate my room,

I need a;

1. Book shelves
2. A decent table
3. A decent bed
4. LCD perhaps ? :P

Hahaha that's just furniture, I further need a

1. 14" Laptop
2. A watch (so long since my last wish list, yet I can't get it.. DAMN)
3. A Sony W300
4. A Sony Ericsson XPERIA X1
5. Another external HDD.
6. A server

Anyone going to sponsor me? Oh yea I need a reading chair too...... Sponsor anyone?

Everything goes smoothly when you are happy :)

I believe that whenever people are happy, they tend to do things smoothly and the result will be good. I am not pretty sure why, but that's the fact man. Rarely you will get something bad when you are happy.

Sometimes it is better for people to not to spoil the mood for everything, happy is the "Key". Some people might thinks that people grow along with pressure. But for me.. I think people grow with good pressure, not tense pressure. I don't have any scientific facts or whatsoever support for this post. But personally I do think that happy is the key factor for everything.

Last time when I was in a group working with my course mates, I used to give heavy tense pressure to them. It will not work, everything will not work. I might think that it's for the team good, but I did not think from their point of view. Project submitted, but morale of the team fall to the bottom line. Losing the team morale is simply sucks especially when I know team work is what really will make thing run smoother.

You might be the king of the world, the most brilliant person in the world, but without people helping you, you are just a piece of shit. You won't be able to do anything. Sometimes there are this term which I don't understand "specialize", I used to think that why should I specialize? The more I know the better, but somehow I don't deny it, I still not that specialize myself. But somehow specialized post has their role to play. Things will still fail when you put someone not good in cooking at the kitchen, but if s/he good in beverage, put s/he in the bar, you will see the result.

Put the right person to the right position. Make them happy, don't ask what they can give you, give them what they need, they will give you what you want. I do believe so.... At least I am still believe it now :)

Friday =.= Gone case..

Since when I have started to go out on Friday night? Since I'm 17 year-old, every Friday is my night, I go out yam cha and have fun with my friends. How many years since then? 23 - 17 = 6.

6 YEARS man! And today I have to stay til 12 am just to bloody demo to the client.. How could I spend my night waiting for client at U.S. for the bloody demo?

duh.......

Fuck!

God Damn It! My iPhone got pawned! DAMN DAMN. Fucking frustrated man!

When you don't know what to blog..

What am I doing now? Sitting in front of my Dell PC watching latest HK series. Thinking back what I have did this month, I just can find one word for it, "over-spent". LOL. 

What have I spent? I spent on Justin's Air Concert tickets for two (RM250), then service my car for the trip (RM630), renew PM's license (RM140), renew company license (RM170), father's birthday present (RM320), some one's birthday cake (RM50). I am fucking broke now. 

So what I have missed out? I miss out a lot a lot of photo. Let me try and upload the some of the photos :P 

But it just failed. Damn pissed off man! 

Guess after so long I am still thinking of her? WTF? Shall I or shall I not? I am not pretty sure. 

How about work? I am not pretty sure how's the condition too, all I know now is the company already a MSC company. Will I get increment? I doubt so.. I have no idea where is this company direction is heading too. From the uncertainty of this company gives me, I have come up with some of my stupid idea. I have decided to pick up as much as possible before quitting the job, though I know I get to learn quite a bit of stuff there but the thing is I am just not as happy as the beginning of work. 

I am still trying to upload the pics I taken using various camera. But the connection just failed me. Pissed x 2. 

Holidays is coming soon..... But I don't feel the happiness. Why le? I'm so in doubt for my future. 

p/s: I have no idea what the fuck im blogging right now.. bleh.. off la.. 

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Ok.. I'm now at office sitting in front of my laptop waiting for my colleague to finish his task before we can continue the next one. Now I know the feeling of my boss when it comes to me back then. Now I know why he's so frustrated when I can't deliver the task assigned to me.

It might be an easy job for him, and I just can't get it right or shall I say I'm lacking of fast pace and IQ to solve the problem? Yesterday he has enlighten me for the programming world. And it is true that I have no enough experience to lead a project. True enough! He has assigned my colleague under my control and assigning work to him to complete the project.

I am totally frustrated with this colleague of mine due to all his messy work, which really irritate me a lot! Seriously, once there are changes in the program, it's like doing a big overhaul for the project. I'm dying! Seriously! I can't stand the way he do things anymore. I always wonder how he learn programming in UTAR.

For those from APIIT and you come across my blog, we are much fortunate to have APIIT to educate us in a more proper way of programming. OOP is a very very very good programming way. Structural is a suckiest way to do programming.

From now on, I must plan a good program structure which require the minimum changes for whatever requirement change or stuff like this. (peek on colleague, shake head... and he's now reading entertainment news paper, typical chinese culture. ). I vow to stand up and learn more and more knowledge on IT before flying away from this "working-for-12-hour-with-not-so-smart-colleague" kind of environment.

Sign off!

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin

Today is a very good day. All the malay I saw today is witha smiling face and humble attitude. I do think if this continue our country will become more and more prosper. No racism, no discrimination, no seperation of color ski, will bring a brighther future for us and for our next generation.

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin!!