Empty or Free?

My thought..

Today is a normal day.

Yesterday I went to Borders and found two books;

Jack Welch: Straight from the Guts
iCon Steve Jobs The Greatest Second Act in the History of Business

These two men, Jack Welch and Steve Jobs are among the most successful business people around the world, not to mention Bill Gates, Jeff Immelt, "Mc" Donald Thrumph, local made Dato' Tony Fernandes, Lee Kha Shing and excreta.

Some people said these books are pure lies, some said it's bull shit, some said waste of my time. But I said these books are treasures,their stories are not necessary need to be followed by the readers, but their stories inspired a lot of good leaders around the world. Their impact towards the world is enormous!

No one ask you to follow their footsteps but their stories show their determination in creating a path of success. In these books you can see the progression of their career, how they manage their difficulty during hard time. Readers shall not read blindly, read and evaluate, that's the point. If applicable then please apply it to your life.

I was informed by my mum that I was selected to become the MC for the annual dinner along with two beautiful ladies. Hmm.... I'm not that convinced with the MC roles, I would rather to be part of the organizing committee. However, since been "selected" then why not give a PERFECT SHOT to the "last" MC role in the organization? Actually I'm looking forward to be partner with the two pretty ladies :P

Hmm... Ever wonder what will happened when two prodigies working on the same project? I'm looking towards it, it might be three or even four prodigies. It shall soon be realized next semester. LOL

Wish List

Wish List Year 2007


Let's start with something really affordable

1. Jack Welch: Straight from the Guts (Please donate this book to me if you are able to :P)
2. Jack Welch: Success (My address is...... 36 Jalan Sinaran 3 Taman Sinaran 43200 Kajang)
3. Tie (I don't have one, I admit it LOL)
4. Razer or Logitech Wireless Combo set :P
5. A watch

Now something more expensive

1. Sony Ericsson P990i (Warranty by Thorus)
2. Nokia E61i (Warranty by Avaxx)
3. Dell Lattitude

Something not affordable

1. Honda Civic 2.0 i-vtec
2. Mazda 3
3. Mazda Kabura


HAHAHA well... i shall just keep on dreaming...

Freedom

Isn't the skies are just too nice to be described? For me it represent FREEDOM. Whenever I look to the empty skies. I feel so nice, the feeling is unexplainable, all burden will be taken away from your shoulder, you will feel so light. No pressure, just pure light-and-easy.

What is freedom to me? Hmm.. I guess I have quite much of freedom.. But is that adequate? For me.. NO. Definitely NO. What kind of freedom I want then?

I want...... to choose my own profession, I want total control on what my decision, I want to have my own career, I choose to work what I want, I choose what kind of lifestyle I want. But somehow I cannot, I'm destined to be accept the fact, I cannot walk the normal path that everyone needs to walk. (To be precise, I will not be able to be an office exec, I can't know a lot of OL :P, I can't be "important person" in MNC company, I can't battle for climbing the corporate ladder, bla bla bla)

I'm destined to be work with my father, though not my dream, but I guess that's the only way that the family can get better living and make sure the business manageable. I can't blame my parents too, they do not have proper education. As the result the send me to UC, to learn and to be a educated person. Well.............. Just have to accept the fact. Might one day I can be another Mr. Tony Fernandes? LOL That would be great!!! LOL But still I love my freedom...

HAHA this reminds me the anime Gundam Seed Destiny where Freedom vs Destiny

This is just so similar!

I fight for my freedom and rule my destiny!






Sign off and Nitex.

What a Day?!

Today is my midpoint!!

I thought I have did my best but... it seems not a good one.. hmm
Hmm

It's not a bad day actually, all goes well...

As I go down to take my car.. I found broken ladies under garment on the top of the car.. I used a paper to swap it away, then the water splash on my face.. WTF? Fine as I think it's nothing, the journey continues....
Reached Eugene house to get a tie. Bloody hell I don't have a tie actually. All the time I dun feel nice, I'm not sure what happened though.

Reached APIIT then went up for printing, for a stupid FYP, I paid 12.50 for printing and binding.
Then went to library to borrow some books.
Wait for my midpoint.. so stupidly alone.. saw her.. with her friend.. too lazy to greet her cos she's with the "ghey" friend.
Midpoint continues with Mr. Ratha, he's ok.. but indirectly he say my system no good, need more value.. Sigh...
Gone back to work, one and a half hour of boring class.
Go back... go into car.. reverse.. BANG! CHUN!

Talk talk talk.. then ends up surely I pay la..
Sigh Sigh Sigh.....

Money Flies, Marks Flies, "Friendship" Flies..

Sign off.. I'm dull...

What am I to her?

Months ago.. I had a crush on a girl... I tried so many times to approach her.. after a few months of hard work, I did it.. I thought everything is going fine, but somehow when time goes by.. I found that I'm just too stupid to believe that when you treat a person nice, they will treat you nice too..

This is a definitely a NO NO, all the while, I'm just a floating wood that used by her to float when she's in the middle of the sea. Recalling what I have did for the past few months is really not worth it, I have been spending my precious sleep time to get contact with her, I would spend my time hanging out with her, I would spend my money on calling her, I would pay every single attention to her. What do I get in the end?

I get ignorance, the pain is unbearable, Why? Why? Why? Am I only worth to be her friend when there's no one wants to be with her, when no one good to her? Without a doubt I think I am, all the empty promises, all the lies, all the sweet memories are just a lie, a dream, a fantasy.

What am I actually?

Am I that bad? Am I that worthless? What have I did wrong?

I hate you!! I hate you!!

I wish we never met before!!

You lied me!

I seriously hate you!!

If I hate you that much, why are you always appearing in my mind!?! WHY??
I miss you in the same time.. Time to let go... I thought I forgotten you.. but it seems I did not managed to..

What you want now? WHAT YOU WANT!!

STOP MAKING ME THINKING OF YOU IF YOU DON'T WANT ME!!

My life is happy without your existent! Why? Why? Why?
Why the heck you SMS me?

Why?
Why?
Why?

I hate you.. yet I miss you..

I'm so disappointed.........................................................

++Stress++

Recently it's pure stress, why? Let's count;

1. FYP - Well this Final Year Project has cause me a headache for so fucking long, to be frank I choose my own company, creating a software I wanted, bla bla bla. But then I just don't really know how the hell a construction company can do costing while all the books I read on costing talks about manufacturing. I search through the internet, going on every single site regarding construction, the result? A very limited resources on the construction standard regarding Malaysia (Pak Lah you shall consider some solutions on this.). Worst come to worst, I have not create a list of questionnaire for my intended interviewees, talking about interviewees, I have not determine who are them. HAHAHAHA and guess what? I got a super-nice-smile-quiet supervisor, and super-strict-dark-color adviser. I love you too, please love me too ya!

2. Financial crisis - Hahaha well, this apply just to myself. Recently my earning is extremely low. Any donor? Please bank in to my account. Erm.... this give me quite a big problem you know? I need to spend on daily but my income resources just come once a month. I need a way out man!!

3. Assignment & Group Projects - I think most of my classmates are rushing for GCS and preparing their midpoint. Well.. So am I. There always some unhappy incident in group projects. Sigh..... just let it be man, just hope the boat will port straightly when it reach the harbor. There's another project (group) which has not even started.. Scare the hell out of me man! What's more about IEMKT??? Half pile of water.

4. Girl - It's still the same, up and down, high and low, argument and happiness. Cheers, wish you'll be mine soon!

5. Family business - I wanted to help, too limited authority, little knowledge, little time.

6. Hair - My hairs drop... Too Stress!!! >.<'' That's why cut it so short... Fuck!! There goes my hairs..

7. Health - Just so so...... Need more exercise, more vitamin & mineral.

Hey... I need a break!!!!!!! I need a smarter brain!!! I need ladies luck!!!! I need love!!!! most importantly I need MONEY!!!!!

Ohh yea.. cut the craps. I saw the new IKEA's brochures, the furniture is damn damn nice!! I'm getting some of it to decorate my new house man! HAHA Dad!! Keep your hand out of the upstairs living room! That's under my supervision! My room and siblings' are also under my control! Hehe... Gonna make it super damn nice.. I will draw in the Visio sooner or later.

My dear car... now ur turn, i know your immune system got problem, I know that I didn't take care of your appearance too, please forgive me... I will repaint you when I have extra money.

My family business, come on daddy, my FYP shall serve the purpose for you man!! Hahaha the system might fails but your son learn from the process on construction! You gotta be profitable soon!! Hire me for RM2k when I grad!

That's for now! See ya! I update again tomorrow if I able to!